"Writing" for my escape to heaven and hell
I sadly inform you that I have six years to take down my graduate shit. More miserably, perhaps, I did the whole writing-thesis-process in only one semester. So, where are my four semester if it should be ended in eight semester?
I sentenced my mother's question in a cold way. It is not in a judge, I am not a jury, but I did it. I gave her a icy words for her judgement after what I did. I feel embarrassed. Bit guilty. And quite depressed.
This added my long run list of wrong things I have done to my mother. So, she asked me how my thesis goin? It is already six years. She can't help but just pray.
What I said was, "my thesis is almost done, need you to pray". What the fuck. Am I serious? Then, to add my plea, I highlighted my opinion about two weeks ago when one of my family came to the campus. What he did was stupid, and did not help at all. I wanted to get angry with him.
So, my mother continued with the worst thing I would ever to answer. It is about my future.
What I said was,"I make it long because I prepare for my future as I do not want to sell eggs at home". This sentence seemed outrageous. I felt sorry for that. But it is not over because I have to pay them with my so called preparation. What is that?
Yeah. I write "writing" for my escape to heaven and hell to plea me, at least this time. I do aware of my writing skills that is super difficult to compete, with my friends just to mention. So, why do I dare to say that I am preparing my writing skills? I am dead.
You can say go to hell with your writing skills!
So, writing is what I dreamed for this now. This work is so super sexy. It uses people's brain capacity to maintain the work. Not just a soft skill that can be learnt in a week. Let's say that my brother has a enormous numbers of money, what he see is her brother do not have money, and he want to help him. What will he do? Let's say give me that money to open a chicken farming. Why? Because it earns a lot of money. Of course I do not want to do that.
I prefer to go to heaven with my averaged-writing skills to live. At least, I still can improve it again and again. Writing, is a kind of a discipline that only gain if you paid much pain. It is much beyond than chicken farming of course.
You know, I always remembered Ray Bradbury that people do not have to be come a writer or reader, or not all of them of course. People can still have their own dream job and we cannot say that writing is better than them. For fuck sake, I kept this word for life. I do not put down a negative judgement to another job, let's say chicken farming. I just do not want it and do not like it. Nothing more.
I escape to the wiring world because I feel it's a better place for me.
That's my disclaimer. So, dont blame me huh,
I sentenced my mother's question in a cold way. It is not in a judge, I am not a jury, but I did it. I gave her a icy words for her judgement after what I did. I feel embarrassed. Bit guilty. And quite depressed.
This added my long run list of wrong things I have done to my mother. So, she asked me how my thesis goin? It is already six years. She can't help but just pray.
What I said was, "my thesis is almost done, need you to pray". What the fuck. Am I serious? Then, to add my plea, I highlighted my opinion about two weeks ago when one of my family came to the campus. What he did was stupid, and did not help at all. I wanted to get angry with him.
So, my mother continued with the worst thing I would ever to answer. It is about my future.
What I said was,"I make it long because I prepare for my future as I do not want to sell eggs at home". This sentence seemed outrageous. I felt sorry for that. But it is not over because I have to pay them with my so called preparation. What is that?
Yeah. I write "writing" for my escape to heaven and hell to plea me, at least this time. I do aware of my writing skills that is super difficult to compete, with my friends just to mention. So, why do I dare to say that I am preparing my writing skills? I am dead.
You can say go to hell with your writing skills!
So, writing is what I dreamed for this now. This work is so super sexy. It uses people's brain capacity to maintain the work. Not just a soft skill that can be learnt in a week. Let's say that my brother has a enormous numbers of money, what he see is her brother do not have money, and he want to help him. What will he do? Let's say give me that money to open a chicken farming. Why? Because it earns a lot of money. Of course I do not want to do that.
I prefer to go to heaven with my averaged-writing skills to live. At least, I still can improve it again and again. Writing, is a kind of a discipline that only gain if you paid much pain. It is much beyond than chicken farming of course.
You know, I always remembered Ray Bradbury that people do not have to be come a writer or reader, or not all of them of course. People can still have their own dream job and we cannot say that writing is better than them. For fuck sake, I kept this word for life. I do not put down a negative judgement to another job, let's say chicken farming. I just do not want it and do not like it. Nothing more.
I escape to the wiring world because I feel it's a better place for me.
That's my disclaimer. So, dont blame me huh,
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